Sensitive heart

Thank you, Lord, for giving me friends like them.

Yesterday, I've realized things about myself. I dont want my friends getting mad at me, I also dont want user friendly friends. I dont want my friends, especially those close to my heart, to stab me at my back. Sobrang babaw ng luha ko, konting problema lang iiyak na ako, because for me it is already a big deal. Kahit for them it's not. 
Last night till dawn, I've got to talk to people who are close to my heart. 
Enzo, Alec and I talked a lot about Blue Symphony family, it was nice and fun. :) I'm not leaving this org. 

Realizations
I think someone's right when he said this to me: (though I'm still fighting it) that your college friends will leave you when the time comes. Orgs are where you will find friends who will stay with you. Today I understood the last line, pero yung first line na sinabi niya, I'm trying my best for that not to happen. I'm still in the process and it was never easy.
Another realization, maybe, God made me to experience this because i have forgotten about Him these past few days. It's time to bring back the old habit of scripture reading and praying for comfort, love and understanding..
God made my heart sensitive to emotions, just like a loving child who doesn't want any fights or misunderstanding with the people she knows. God made my heart sensitive also for me to understand other people and help them as much as I can. But then, this sensitive heart is also vulnerable even to the slightest pain that will be inflicted upon it, thus needing other people with good hearts to touch and heal it.