Could have been

I've been in the room the whole day. I feel sick today since waking up. Gem and I could have gone to the silent protest in Luneta about the Pork Barrel Abolition, but because of some reasons, we weren't able to. I could have jogged around Ateneo, but I felt so tired and weak this morning. Moreover, I still have to do acad works like my part for histo report and a philo paper about phenomenology. So yeah, I must stay in the room.

I had an allergy attack again like last night. Good thing Gem gave me Marsthine, and it worked, it was really effective. I became sleepy, though. Now I feel sick again, as if my whole body's going to shatter (just exaggerating, ha ha).

So there, I just finished my part for Histo.. now, for Philo... I'm planning to talk about my religion. I'm gonna post my work here after meditating and putting it into words completely... ciao, for now.

Reflect

When I got home, my room mate's still awake so I was able to tell her almost everything that had happened in the album launch, including the problem. Basically, she knows everything (mostly). :))

I was supposed to go to church at 8:30am but my body did not permit me to do so, kaya I went to church at 12:30pm, after we ate lunch from chowking. It was really tiring yesterday, I wanted to sleep till the afternoon, pero JC called me on my phone. He sounded worried about Jake and his friend, and he made me worried to. after that he did not call again, so I really do not know what happened to them..

I asked Jake, sabi, he slept at JC's friend's house kasi he was so sleepy and could not drive much further. I do not know more than this, so don't ask further haha.

Well, as long as they are okay, it's fine with me. akala ko naman kasi napahamak na sila nung tumawag si JC, lol. 

anyway, it's the Lord's day today. I was able to attend the sacrament at 1pm. I was so sleepy, pero good thing I have learned a lot. It's just not clear to me why temple marriage is the main topic discussed. Then, nagets ko when the last speaker's topic was about "Families are Forever." Oh yes, I remembered my family. 

Once again, I felt the importance of the gospel in the family, and in our life; the decisions we make must be aligned to what the Lord wants for us. How do we know what He wanted? through His gospel. If we constantly ask for His guidance and at the same time do the things that we love or wanted for ourselves and for others, we will be directed accordingly. :)

It feels so good to spend time at the Lord's church today. I felt that, for a while, my problems were set aside and the Spirit let me feel the holiness of the atmosphere during that hour. 

Back at the dorm, yes I still feel tired, so I slept as I listened to uplifting songs. (yldsr.com)

when I woke up, I had an allergy attack on both my arms and neck. This is the greatest challenge that I face as of now, if I had a genie that grants wishes, this what I would wish to be gone forever in my life.

Because of this, I started to miss my old skin, haha, not this kind of skin na may rashes. Anyway, now, I have thought that the Lord has a purpose for this, on why I have to endure this kind of feeling and illness. What is that purpose? I don't know yet, but someday, I know I will realize it.

That topic aside, I remembered telling mom everything that had happened to me since yesterday. Everything, including what I did and felt. haha! I missed my mom so much. i thought she was going to scold me, pero no, nang asar pa. hahahah! i love her so much. Best mom ever. I'm so blessed.

Saturday Blast

What a Saturday!! I came home late Friday night because of rehearsals, then we ate at Kenny Rogers. The whole day (that Friday, before the rehearsals) was somehow fine. I had the chance to help in packing relief goods that will be delivered to people in Cavite, Laguna, etc. It is such a good feeling to help others, though it may seem to be of little importance.

I had a fun night with Blue Symphony friends, pero of course, I still have to study because I have LT for Epidemiology the next day. huhu. So when I went home, I slept for a few hours then studied until morning. I fell asleep again then woke up at 830. The class is at 9am. haha! So I immediately took a bath and wore a dress, para mabilis. then, took the exam. It was difficult, but manageable.

I really do hope that I can get a good grade from this test. I know the Lord heard my prayer, the question now is, is my effort enough for me to be worthy of that blessing? I don't know. I need more reflecting time.

Anyway the next agenda for yesterday was to eat at Shakey's for Enzo's celebration. kami kami nina JC, Jez, and Jerick ang magkakasama until the next agenda - to Purgatory Bar, Makati.. Album launch of Jack Versus the Crab (Jazz band: Guido, and Jacob Sarreal are one of the members)

I have to admit, the topics discussed while we were at Jerick's car (going to the venue) were not really pleasing, so most of the time, I just kept quiet and imagined some other things. Well, when we arrived there, it really SMELLS. uh, first time ko sa bar. of course I expected smoke and beer na pero I did not expect that it would be smoky and smelly. haha! Like I wanted to go home after we got there. Pero syempre, nandun na kami and I don't know how (and I'm scared) to go home by myself, so I might as well enjoy the night with friends :D

The band were so good, haha, though there were times when I can't understand the lyrics, the music was so good, it was lively and fun to listen to, especially the brass section, when they have their solo parts. Having them kinda makes the band unique and interesting to watch and hear.
It was a wonderful opportunity to witness a great God-given talent.

okay, so nalasing si Jc, at medyo tipsy si Jez, which were somehow, sources of the tension as we went home. Good thing we have a Kuya on board who helped us with the situation. :) He advised that these things should be figured out this morning, after resting.

So far, everything went fine, I hope.

Back

Happy Anniversary to my mom and dad!
and Happy Birthday to Enzo.

haaaaay. back to normal today. I had fun though :)
I'm glad I was able to explain well in Philosophy earlier. andami kong natutunan; now I know how to write a phenomenological paper. Choosing an EXPERIENCE na lang ang problem ko. haha.
tapos sa LS naman, I have learned more than I know, especially in motivating people...

bonding time with Ina, again. HAHA. She must not be alone. well, she requested. para raw di niya maisip YUN. yun na yun :))

we had so many pictures today...

anyway.. haha, as usual, inantok ako sa History, even if it is interesting kasi si Marcos ang topic. there were instances na gusto ko na talaga iyuko at itulog, pero there were topics about Marcos na nagigising talaga ako. ha ha ha.

In Socio-Anthro naman, the guest speaker was really inspiring when it comes to healthy living. Today I have learned that I should count the fiber that I take up and not the calories. balancing the fiber would help me more in equally choosing the food that I must eat, without worrying about the calories anymore. :)

aside from theses acads experiences, there were also fun moments with friends lalo na sa blue symphony friends, and thesis groupmates :)
I'm blessed to have them, kahit na medyo na-piss off ako dahil sa isang tao. I'm still blessed. haha, He really tested my patience today. :)

Mixed

A lot of emotions have been expressed today.
earlier this morning, I already felt so excited and nervous about the performance. I can't concentrate on anything, so I just prepared the things and myself for later's performance.

Though the weather is still crazy and scary, I prayed that everything will be fine.
However, due to inevitable circumstances, the show today was cancelled.

we were so ready, well almost... Willa, Nicole and I already looked fabulous with our hair and make up, pero it's like everything shattered, including my excitement, when Rein texted me that the performance is cancelled for today. Everything fell apart (exaggerating. haha). pero it felt like that. it was really saddening. i dont know. I understand naman, that it is for everyone's sake, at para walang mapahamak. I just regretted the money I spent for hair and make up. I should have waited some hours more before going to the salon..

anyway, para hindi masayang ang make up. nagpictorial na lang HAHAHA. kawawa naman kami. lol. just kidding. :)

uh, I went to buy comfort food, with my room mate. I'm really sad, kahit na alam kong matutuloy ito some other time, pero ewan eh, ganun talaga. kasi I am already expecting and imagining our performance, tapos biglang wala, parang nag brownout na lang. :))

okay. so, if it's really what the Lord wants, then it will be. thinking about it, kung natuloy, we are let's say "comfortably" performing, and yet, in some parts of the region are many people struggling to find food and shelter for the family. Moreover, the guests and other audience may have a hard time coming to Ateneo because of the bad weather. SO yeah, canceling the show is the best decision for now. :)


so, bonding moments na lang with Blue Symphony friends today...
I'm still trying hard to be productive tonight. haha. May pasok na bukas. Pero ayaw ko pa.

Oh i loved this night. I get to chat with one of my close friends, Ina. heart to heart talk. I hoped I was able to help her. Fun night, chatting with friends :D

Despite some sad news, I still felt the Lord's mercy and love for me today. The wind and the rain may be strong, but His love and power is stronger, and this keeps me protected and hopeful.

Tensed

Since yesternight, I have been worried about so many things.
After the rehearsals in Blue Symph, I suddenly realized that I am really part of the performance for later and tomorrow... this makes me more nervous. first time on stage with an orchestra :) but i know it will be a wonderful experience

I have also been anxious about the ASLA 1st phase results. I thought that I did not pass. I have already stated in my mind that maybe it was not meant for me, or better luck next time for me, pero hours after I got home, someone tagged me on a post about ASLA. I was really happy. I exclaimed here in my room. It was really a blessing for me. The Lord answered my prayer, He responded to what I desire. He really is wonderful. I am really thankful. Though first phase pa lang ng screening, still, it is really a beautiful blessing and opportunity that He has given me. If ever I pass the second phase, surely I will give everything that I have and that I will be, to God in return for this blessing.

Okay. due to the bad weather, the concert will not push through today. pero it will, tomorrow. The weather's so bad, i just went outside with my roommate to eat lunch. buti may bukas pang restaurants.

I hope and pray that everyone is safe, wherever you are.
Keep praying and asking for guidance and protection from the Lord. He truly answers prayers, especially those that are sincere.

Rainy day

Honestly, I can't hear the rain from my room.

I still pray that everyone is safe... I know the Lord will protect His children because He loves us. However, we also need to do our part. "Effort is required." let us keep ourselves away from harm :)

Well, today is a gloomy morning. Turning on the tv to hear the alarming news gave me forlorn feelings.
And it's Blue Symph's general rehearsal today. I sure hope that everything will be fine despite the bad weather/ the bed weather. haha.

putting that aside, there are also acads stuff to do.

I can do this! Aja! :))
stay safe everyone